sorry for this very very very very late replies. replies date back to 30th march? =x sorry!
and thanks for all your jiayous and good lucks for SYF. they've really been of use for us! (:
tag replies:lynn: yay!
liuyi: haha no you're not the first to like r.chord! first from our school maybe. :/ and ya you his 头号FANS lah ok? (: and aye. im just not up to standard. im not up for it. ): but thanks anyway! and I DONT KNOW WHAT TO SAY ABOUT CHAI ANYMORE. ): i feel lost.
peisan: very often meh? i just changed! haha. and yes MS CHONG CRIED! woots. (sounds mean :/)
sylvia: oh hi! (:
yihui: oh ok. o.O
han sheng: -.- dont fake lah. not funny. and for the 取金 with honours thing, now you know why we're not cheena. :/ gwh and gold is obviously you please. -.-
jasmine: haha duh. if you emo and i emo then the whole section emo. then how? and I BLOGGED. (:
qianwen: you gossip woman! and haha yes you're mad. HOW YOU KNOW HAN SHENG. and YES I MISS BAND. ):
kexin: haha you what chapter liao arh? is the second gold you? o.O
wy quin: yes and we saw you! (:
cynthia: haha thanks! i really needed that.
valerie: hi! (:
jo: stop making me jealous liao lah. T.T and haha thanks for the encouragement!
chingying: haha RANDOM.
aLy: eh who are you? o.o
the.lol.person: who are you too! o.o
vengyi: oh my! HELLO. long time no see. or hear. haha. thanks! (:
lien: HELLO! (:
sunday at jason's was ok.
yet after the lesson, i met him coincidentally at the foot of the bridge to parkway, even though he left about half and hour before it.
was it mere coincidence?
do coincidences happen twice or even thrice a row in a day?
i dont think so.
at the centre we're classmates, maybe even friends when we have to solve stuff together.
yet-
on the streets we're merely passers-by, or strangers at crossroads.
it's disturbing.
been taking the bus to school these few days. and i've been meeting hakim on the bus.
everyone's growing so tall. and im forever at this height. ): and i like SJI's jacket. (: green and white.
went to watch SYF at SCH on monday with qianwen. was supposed to meet kexin but apparently she disappeared into thin air. fortunately qianwen had alot of contacts and we managed to sneak in to take a peak. RI's performance was nice! thought they did very well. (; especially for their choice piece and the part at sunrise where the upper woodwinds mimic the sounds of birds. very nice! (;
qianwen and i went back after RI's performance. heard alot of gossips from her. shall award her the gossip women of the year. (:
volunteered the help out at the SWS on tuesday, mainly just playing the double bass for their percussion enzemble, cause christal said they needed someone to help and jasmine didnt want to so there i volunteered. concert's on the 8th july! and they practice at ulu pandan cc, just next to my grandma's house.
yesterday was quite a fortunate day for me i guess. just quite screwed up at the end. morning was usual and i found out that im going to chilton (wellington, new zealand) for overseas attachment for end of year programme. smellie's going jaipur (india) and mozzie's going camberwell (melbourne, australia). congrats! (:
Christchurch Girls’ High School was established in 1877 and has an excellent record of academic excellence. In addition, the school provides a wide variety of co-curricular activities. Students are also able to enjoy the close proximity of the Botanic Gardens, the Public Library, the Arts Centre, the Art Gallery and Museum as well as the beautiful River Avon.
More information can be found in the school website:
http://www.chgirls.school.nzfelt a little lost then. i had already mentally prepared myself for work experience, yet-
i just dont know.
then had the long awaited (dreaded) maths test which was rumoured to be very long cause alot of people couldnt finish the paper. though i managed to finish most and left only a 2 mark question blank, i still feel worried. ): i feel like something's missing.
then after school we had music. mrs ee was shocking, appearing to be so high yesterday, laughing at our lame and ridiculous opinions. i screwed up assesment as usual. ): played sonatina and broke down alot alot alot of times. rushed like siao. but surprisingly i still could hit all the notes. and i guess i was like the worst in the class. ):
after lessons, sarah goujun shena and i changed and went to thai noodle house for dinner. ate liao then bused to marina and walked to esplanade for piano recital. the recital was really good! called "an orchestra at the keyboard", kenneth hamilton really pulled it off. all the difficult fingerings with speeding running notes and the great leaps and runs and crossing of hands. really amazed and impressed. and wow the piano is nice. haha.
today.
i feel so screwed. i feel tired. tired of life or just plain tired i dont know.
i dont know who i am. im someone with lost identity.
i seem so have split personality. one during band and music and the other in lessons at home and at jason's.
i'm merely masking my true self, pretending to be a happy-go-luck girl.
i'm hiding myself from the eyes of others, afraid of what they would think of me.
i'm going anti-social.
i usually hold back when my eyes are wet, yet when i want to let all the tears flow now, i cant seem to be able to.
and that's when i realise that bottling up isnt doing any good at all.
the pain is unbearable.
can someone just really make me cry?
